rachel's

Lipsticknapkinz

2008-12-28T11:36:00.002+08:00

Relink please, Thanks.

ichtyophobia

2008-12-25T11:12:00.002+08:00

Oh I forgot to add. I had my biggest nightmare;

I went to this place that was full of fish. It was like a fish festival on a fish island or smth. Everywhere I went had fish lah wtf. I don't know how I survived there. Like even normal path also got water and fish. EFF I feel scared even when I recall it now. OMGWTFFFFF. I remembered this when I opened my lunch pack mum bought and there's part of a fish there. I think I don't dare to eat fish already.

:(

Merry X'mas

2008-12-25T10:12:00.002+08:00

Hi all, I've decided to push back the date of using LJ. Anyway, Merry Christmas to all! I went back to church yesterday with the bunch who have 'backslided' as well. Okay not bunch, but you get it. After church it was about 10PM so we headed down t Changi Airport to have dinner and ended up missing the last train from there, but wtf it was only 12AM ++, and we thought train service was extended?!?

Kay whatever, since it was so we took a bus instead. Wanted to head to town initially but since the transport had decided not to be kind to us (Wtf am I writing a compo!), we had to head home. Even heading home itself had a problem. In th end, we took a bus down to hougang then took a cab back. By the time I was home, it was 2.30-ish AM, and I couldn't use the computer cause my brother was sleeping already (The computer is in his room). I didn't dare to switch on the television as well, Idk why but yeah. Then I texted a bit and slept.

I REGRET NOT BUYING BATTERIES FOR MY CAM. My blog's so boring.

Till Friday maybe.

Lj

2008-12-22T15:36:00.001+08:00

I will be betraying blogger soon! I finally figured out Livejournal. Hahahahaha. But I'll still leave this here cause I know I'll be back! Itchy fingers!

(pouts)

2008-12-21T16:13:00.001+08:00

Can someone freaking teach me how to use livejournal?! :(

Honestly that never happened

2008-12-20T23:46:00.003+08:00

Lately I have been heading to bed earlier than ever and it doesn't feel good, but I have no idea why? Well oh well. Maybe it is good though because staying up late into the night (or morning, you say) will cause one to become fat! Haha :)

sleeping to dream

2008-12-20T18:10:00.002+08:00

Looking at this picture, I so wanna eat something nice now. Something special like hotpot or steak or maybe a buffet? Hahaha, damn. I am currently have a sore throat/dry throat and I don't know why. And again, I feel like eating! Haha. This is what I did today :

1. Brunch with my mother.
2. Facial (Which also means sleep)
3. Continued to sleep
4. Now I wanna go and eat.

Wah what a pig.

Hearts all over the world tonight.

2008-12-19T00:22:00.003+08:00

Went to accompany Belinda to interview after work. Went to Toys'r'us to play. Hahaha, so lame. Today I am feeling uber happy. Because there is no work tomorrow and I'm not going to tell you why! HAHA. Nothing much to say, see you guys!

Anthology

2008-12-17T22:54:00.003+08:00

I officially declare the phrase "School sucks" invalid. Can you believe this? I am missing school! I love school (hearts) and I am not sarcastic. (Inserts sad face) I miss rushing to AMK library straight after school to get a seat for myself or to reserve seats for others. I miss having fun in the library in between the time studying. I miss the chicken rice at the market near library. I miss walking all the way from the library to AMK hub area to get Ramlee burger. I miss studying. I am missing everything.

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You can obviously guess that this is all because of work. I dislike (hate is too much a word for this unhappiness) the auntie working at Killiney with me. Aren't old people supposed to be friendly? No, everyone is supposed to be friendly, no? I get at least a sentence (or a chunk) of naggings (or scoldings, if I can use the word) everyday. And I only see her for around 2 hours since her shift starts at 12PM. She's rude and she dislikes me (At least this is what I feel). I tried not giving a damn about her but I really can't stop thinking about what she's doing to me. Oh and, she's rlly a bad role model to follow. At least that is what I feel about her. Today, a customer asked me if we had tomato sauce. Even though she said it's okay if we don't have it, I still went ahead to try and find it for her. Coincidentally, she heard that I was finding for tomato sauce and so she nudged me real hard and said " We don't have tomato sauce lah!," giving me this I-am-annoyed-with-you look. After saying that, I proceed to tell the customer that we don't have tomato sauce. Good thing was, this customer is very understanding and sweet. The other thing was, when I went back, the auntie actually told me, "Next time, if a customer asks if we have any chilli or tomato sauce, just say no. And when customers asks you if their food is coming cause they've waited very long, just tell them 'Ok' and ignore their requests" She also said that it makes our job easier, because we actually have these sauces but we've to take them from the counter/kitchen. I have a question : Isn't customers service most important?

Of course I am more than happy to make my job easier. Afterall, I don't like the job at all. But still, I think that I'm hired to fulfill customer's requests and such. You get what I mean don't you? Well nevermind if you don't. Haha.

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My posts are mostly about work now. See how work sucks. See what it has done to me. I have been constantly yawning throughout the day. I can even sleep while standing in the train.

Retardies to the Zoo.

2008-12-16T15:17:00.020+08:00

This is an long overdued post. Coke and I went to the zoo 2 Sundays ago. So, I've finally received the photos from Coke and decided to blog about it even though I'm dead beat now. (Captions below pictures) Anyway, there is a bonus video at the end of the post! :)

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We met at AMK at 10AM and Coke was the earliest. I thought he would be late because when I called him at 9.30 AM, he just woke up. Haha, I was second then followed by my cousin and her boyf.

When we reached there we saw this long queue and stupidly queued with these people. My cousin's very smart boyf went to the entrance to check, and found out that we weren't supposed to join that queue. We could just enter the zoo because my cousin has the free tixs already! Hehe.

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Coke and I went different routes from my cousin and boyf because they wanted to pat tor (right right! I know you're reading this) Bleah. Hahahah, Ok pictures along our journey.

Err there are actually monkeys behind. Lol.
It's not fake (Looks like eh?)

Ok ignore my retarded fringe. The main focus is on those mice. In case you didn't know, it's that ball of them sleeping in the background. Lol, stupid thing, they were all sleeping!

We walked into every single path, deserted or not. And we even found the zoo's (Whatever you call that) Hahah, damn lame lah I know.

Rhino!

It reads : A young woman's bride-price is determined by the size of the lip plate.

Omg, I'd rather not get married like that. Must've hurt alot?

Leopard.

Zebras!

This two Zebras stoned at this position for the whole time we were at the Zebra's section. Retardedly funny.

Coke says : Eh I didn't know Giraffe's neck so short one leh! Got so short one meh? I thought it very looooooong one leh!

HAHHA

Lion King. Hahah.

This thing is super cute! But too bad we can't touch it.
Iguana. So ugly lol.
Idk what is this!

We took this to scare Pang! Hahahaha.

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Went for lunch at KFC along the journey. With cousin and th boyf! Haha, cussy's boyf's treat! (Hehehehehehehehehe we were damn happy. Thanks a tonne anywaysxzx!)

The "sunshine boy" ! HAHAH Inside joke.

Peacock.

LOL. I got breasts!!!!#$%^&*!#$%^&
Eh! Monkey! Hahahahaha.

Baboon's butt looks like a brain. (By coke)
Main focus : Baby baboon sitting on big baboon's back! So cute!

Trying to scare the peacock out so that we can take photos of it!
Then came another peacock. Pretty eh!

Running after the peacock. Haha it was damn funny.

Retardieszxzxxzxzzx

Tiger tram! They had other prints like zebra's. The dustbins at the zoo are also printed like this. So each time we walked past a dustbin, I'd tell coke "Eh! Take picture with Zebra/tiger!!" Hahaha Ok lah, not very funny here but in actual fact it was quite funny (Or cute hehe)

MURDERERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Can you see their ballz.

I have no idea what is that but I like its colour!

lol.

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We didn't walk completely through the Zoo, cause I had to leave earlier for my brother's birthday celeb. But it was enough since the tickets were free (So we didn't lose anything)

On the bus back to Amk hub! Hahah.

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Here's a bonus for you, for completing reading this post. We caught a baboon humping! Hahah.

As I am

2008-12-15T20:42:00.003+08:00

I was super bored when I did all these actions and take them down using self timer, all in 5 minutes. I was attempting to make my hair messy at the last shot but you can obviously see that it's a failed attempt. Hahah!

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Work was alright today, I talked more than before to my fellow workers there. Yeah the china one. But I still don't like the old lady! She's so fierce. Today Belinda met me at my workplace and we ate there before leaving for wherever we were heading to. After we ate I left my dishes there and went over to tell them that I was leaving.

Rachel : Auntie I go already, bye bye.
Auntie : Eh your plate ah. Clear first!
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This sucks alright! So embarrassing lah. I was carrying my bag and clearing those stuff. The auntie's plain lazy, or what? Anyway we went to the toilet and I changed into my leggings with the Killiney top. I'm not sure if I'm allowed to do that but I did it anyway. And when I got out of the cubicle, Belinda quickly told me that the supervisor and that mean auntie was in the toilet also. So I ran out! Hahah, good grief. Imagine them catching me wearing their top with leggings.

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Enough of them, today while working I saw a butt of a boy. He's around the age of a lower primary I guess. He came in and while he is talking to his brother (Yknow how small boys like to play and talk at the same time), he pulled his pants and put his hand in and scratched his butt like nobody's business. Yes, while talking. Hahaha wtf man.

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Hmmm walked a whole lot with Belinda before being able to find 'O' school. There, she signed up for her course and we left. Walked a whole lot again. Then I headed to eat with my mum at Sembawang. I had mini pot noodles, and that wasn't all. I had 3 prata take away! Haha, so bloated now!

Then and now

2008-12-13T23:57:00.000+08:00

I want.

:'(

WSC

2008-12-13T22:00:00.004+08:00

Went to watch World Slalom Championship (Isit?) today. Was superb I feel rlly motivated now! Grr, too bad I couldn't skate today after watching. Tomorrow will be spent watching again, at Velocity shopping centre.

I feel so sucky since tomorrow is sunday. And the next day after sunday is a weekday!!! No doubt work is getting better but it is still stressful and scary! Well whatever.

Orh and someone took photo with Sebastian lor! Sebastian is this guy, he made his own brand of Seba skates and everyone is using it now! Hehehehe. I forgot to add that, there were many ang mohs at the competition, such eyecandies! HAHA.

Why can't nights be bright?

2008-12-13T19:20:00.001+08:00

I want to go to skate now. But my mum doesn't allow cause she say it's dark and there's no one to accompany me. What a freaking reason. I want to skate!!!

Rachel

2008-12-12T23:27:00.001+08:00

Feels like an inferior silly fool now.
Keyword : Inferior

You make me better

2008-12-12T23:03:00.003+08:00

Work is getting better. Maybe it's because tomorrow is weekend and I am not working, that's why I feel better. My leg aches and my feet hurts. Blame it on work. I have to stand for 6 hours straight, and time passes really slowly.

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Met up with Belinda after work and changed into my leggings cause I hate jeans. Haha! Went to walk around and chill since it's been quite some time since we met. I have no pictures because my battery went flat. Need to buy batteries tomorrow! I'm going to watch a skate competition tomorrow, at Sembawang. Am so eggxited! Going to skate after that. I miss skating. I reckon I'm going to have legs like a pig's trotter soon. I dread the day cause my legs are already fat and ugly! Haha, but whatever. At least they're gonna be muscles, not fats! And I like skating so there's nothing to be sad about! I so need to grasp the base for back cross tomorrow. Ciao!

Can't stop

2008-12-12T00:49:00.003+08:00

Something random.

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I can't stop worrying about work. It's really making me a miserable kid. When I got out of the shop today I was thinking that today is not rlly very bad. I tried to change what I think of it. But I really can't stop thinking negatively again. Am I really lousy or what? Why am I so so so scared of this seriously? This is taking over me. I am constantly thinking about it, and being scared about it. I wish someone knew. I don't know why I feel like I'm the only one feeling this way. Oh my gosh. There are things like sending food to the wrong tables flaring customers up, but it isn't really my fault. It's them who wrote the wrong order/table numbers. After flaring customers up I flare the china fellow worker there up cause I have to tell her about it as obviously I don't know what to do about it? The people in the kitchen and that old lady is always using such a fierce tone to talk to me everytime. She gets annoyed even when I take the cloth around with me and she can't find it. Like what the fuck, there are more cloths aren't there?

Then there is this sound,
"TSK"

Do you freaking know how irritating and scary this can sound? Especially for people like me who get's freaked out and starts to worry and get scared that I pissed someone off. Can you just stop doing this to me? I am just standing there to pour everything in the dustbin and if I get in your way just say "excuse me". Don't freaking "TSK" me! I feel like I'm a hindrance. And that is one of the reasons I don't feel like working there. Although I have only been there for two freaking omg-ly LONG days. Time passes so freaking slowly there, and I don't even dare to sit down even when I have nothing to do. I have to PRETEND to be very happy doing what I am doing, like going in circles pushing the chairs in, cleaning the tables all over and over and over again, bending and picking up rubbish. Even have to smile when I don't even feel at all happy. Not at all. Not at all. NOT AT ALL! Too bad I'm in drama so I love to act hur!

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It's freaking 1.05 AM now and I am still writing this. I am yawning continuously but I don't want to sleep. I swear it sucks to sleep at night now. Because after I sleep it will be morning and it'll be work time!! Oh yay I love work!! Oh sense it (Rolls my eye, RUDELY). I hope I wake up every hour and every hour would say " 2AM". I sound so bimbotic(Except I'm not pretty) but who cares lah! I need this ranting post. I am acting like a spoilt kid, I know. But can't I be scared? Cause I really am!

How to survive through, tell me? :(

Must Tahan

2008-12-11T21:01:00.002+08:00

I am going to tahan this stupid job till the end of the month if possible. And oh no this is only the secondth day. (Inserts Rachel's sad face) Today was better than yesterday. Maybe I am getting used to it. I think it is okay, but when I think again it is so torturous. My mum says business was extremely to the brim yesterday and she told her friend that it's because I bring luck to them! Hahahah. What the hell.

I think I didn't laugh today. And I forsee many more days like this. So sad.

What I am feeling : Scared.

2008-12-10T21:39:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling scared and it's all because of work. I think I'm like a bimbo (Only that I'm not pretty) and I think work sucks. It makes me feel so traumatised and throughout the day, even after work I've been feeling scared and dreadful of tomorrow all my day. Yes, literally, ALL MY DAY. Even though watching wild child and talking to my best friend made my day so much better, I am still feeling super duper scared now. Tell me about it, I went to the foodcourt at TP just now and when I see cleaners I think of myself. When I see hor fun and whatever Killiney sells, I freak out. Haha, oh my god it's so exaggerating but believe me, I AM SCARED.

Realize

2008-12-09T21:21:00.002+08:00

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh watch it! He's so talented and hot and sexy and handsome!

I LIKE ANG MOHS HAHAHAHA.

Live on the COKE side of life

2008-12-09T17:30:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Coke my retardy!

No smileys for you 'cause you hate it! Hahahah. Forever so vain, yet when you are unglam you are really unglam! Super retarded (That's why my retardy forever!) and hey, you know me extremely well. Haha, I remember a couple of times you can actually read my mind and know what I was thinking when I didn't even tell you! Haha. Anyway, do continue to be your forever cheerful self (Or is it I'm not close to you enough that I haven't seen your sad side? Or have I?) Haha, Idk man but do stay cranky, horny, funny and whatever. I rlly like your company like this. Heh, oh and the most cam-whoric guy ever. HAHA. Okay, there are more than this that I have to say, but you can read my mind (Or my heart lol) for it. Lurbes eu, and happy birthday (Put in a smiley you like).

One more night

2008-12-09T10:56:00.002+08:00

I don't like it when I have some pictures in my camera but a hell lot more is in other people's camera. Because I can't blog properly. Talk about a fully done up post. Hahah, but it's all because I am a bummer, when people use their camera to take photos, I'll not bother to take out mine. Also partly because I don't wanna feel like I'm an extra! Tsk.

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I'll be starting work tomorrow, it's at Novena and Idk where exactly isit. My mum says it is like Ya Kun Kaya Toast, sells bread and stuff. But they sell additional stuff like Mee Siam, Mee Rebus, Lontong and whatever. Update more when I get there.

No

2008-12-08T01:04:00.002+08:00

Am I feeling sad tonight? Oh no please tell me I am not. Say I am happy. Fake a smile. Focus on skating alright Rachel?

Admiral Grill

2008-12-07T22:56:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday Army Boy! Not like he's gna see this pathetic blog but still, it's a form of courtesy. Haha, I was suprised that he actually was willing to pose for a picture when I asked him to smile. But anyhow, there, my handsome brother! Looks a'lil like an ang moh, no? Hahaha, I didn't know he was this photogenic :)

Went to Admiral Grill near my place and the food was superb. This place uses the charcoal method to grill their food. Cool ain't? I ordered mixed grill and the picture above was it. Makes you drool doesn't it? My beef was the half cooked half raw kind. Initially I thought it was disgusting but it turned out to taste very good. Love the baked potato! Heh.

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"Retardies to the zoo post" coming soon. After Coke sends me the photos cause most of them is with him. Highlight of the post : Baboon sex. I caught it on my camera's video! Hahaha.

Well I am going off now, gotta wake up early tomorrow to skate, afterwhich we'll head down to Coke's place for the celeb. Goodnight!

Bolt

2008-12-07T01:43:00.006+08:00

Orh, somebody's dress very nice lah?

Went out with Laura and Weijie today, caught the movie "Bolt" @ Cineleisure. It was quite cute, had funny scenes and sad scenes. Not THAT worth my 10 bucks though. We wanted wild child but Weijie watched, so sad! So anyway after we watched, we ate at food court then went home! Before movie, Laura and I went over to Wheelock's to look for Weijie cause she needed to repair her Ipod. The person who served her is veli cute haha!

Ok I am like repeating what Laura blogged about.

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Ok it is so late now. I have to wake up early tomorrow. I'm so eggxited cause I'm going to the Zoo with coke! Hahahaha. I know right, so cute. LOL. Byebye.

make it happen

2008-12-06T23:45:00.018+08:00

Hello! Here are the chalet pictures! I spent almost 2 hours uploading it all! I know I look like shit but whatever, because this is me and you can't do anything about it, can you? So there, enjoy! (captions at the bottom)

Coke and I :)

My favourite girl hehe.

Syaheera :)

My hair is freaking screwed cause it was damn hot. So I pushed everything back with hairband!

Anyway this is Meiyu and I ! Mrs Jeya always mix the two of us up. She calls me Meiyu!

Hahaha lucky dude(not lucky though cause it's me).

Bernice

Renoma boxers forever. He has three pairs. Haha!

Syazwan the emo kid.

Mike and his disgusting marshmellow! It touches the charcoal when he cooks it lah, yuck.

Explain yourself. Haha.

The place where Yap almost dropped his phone!

mii la0g0ng. LOL.

Hmmm.

HHAHAHA Brush teeth also take!

Yap's lion hair after bathing. He claims it's always like this. I think it looks awesome haha.

lol, honoured?

Yap's creation!

Haha we played tic tac toe in the morning with charcoal

Lol Yap was cleaning his muddy slippz.

TRYING (Acting) to be professional lol.

MAX the "Lucifer"

HAHAH.

Lurbez

Eh what you all doing ah!!! Still point middle finger ah!

Hahah look at Bird.

Mike cranky

xiia0yapz

Lol mike and yap.

Yapz.

Awww so sweet! Going to kiss alr.

HAHAHA YAP THOUGHT THE BELLY BUTTON WAS PUSSY.

If you can figure, the drawing on the left is a penis hahahaha mike drew that. And I went out to cheers with that!!!

Haha mike's creation.

LOL @ Jaywee. Damn cute.

Walao I damn short lah!

Orh hor.

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Hahahahha yay I am done lah :D So happy. I'll talk about today (Or if you wanna think, yesterday cause it's 1.30 now) on another post. Grab your pictures from here.

Hell freezes over

2008-12-06T00:15:00.004+08:00

Just finished a packet of hokkien mee at this time, so late and feeling fat now! But I don't wanna care. Anyway hello, welcome me back from chalet! It was boring yet fun at the same time, somehow. I didn't sleep on the first night and slept at 6-ish on the second. We had BBQ on the first day, quite late. Wasn't as good as I expected but we had fun anyway. Spent the first night just slacking outside the chalet and walking to cheers and back again for multiple times.

Oh we went to the beach as well. So freaky, because we walked pass a freaking frog in a puddle of water and it scared us. And also, there was this worm that crawled on my leg and I was oblivious to it till I felt it was long so it couldn't be an ant or whatever. So I quickly threw it away lah, so disgusting. Yap nearly dropped his phone down the sea from the breakwaters, it was such a close shave. Just imagine.

On the second day we wanted to go to escape theme park but lucky we didn't because it was raining. We went out to get some food and Benjamin told us that no one had the key to the chalet and there is no one else there then. So Belinda and I went back, wanting to just look after the things and bum around. When we reached the place, the bloody door was locked! Ben said it wasn't but it was! So then it was raining so heavily but I had to make my way to the head office. Good thing an auntie offered an umbrella as she was walking out to fetch her son. Heh. But still I had to walk back in the rain. And we got back into the chalet anyway. And the key was all along in the chalet. How stupid can we get?

Weiliang came on the second night and he so unfortunately had his havaianas stolen. We all suspect that it was stolen by the ahbeng (xiaozhu) outside out chalet. That group of people looked like they didn't have a chalet of their own. They were sitting and drinking and eating and what nots at our chalet's table outside. But of course we didn't confront them lest we get into trouble. Well we went to mac to look for Akmal and co. who weren't there apparently, and coincidentally we saw 'xiaozhu' outside, smoking and wearing weiliang's slippers! Jaywee and I could super confirm that it was him. But what to do, that was a freaking ahbeng! Well I am cutting short on the stories because it's gonna be a wordy post. Anyway we stole other people's slippers to replace the lost havaianas. And we reckon this will create a routine throughout because the person with the stolen havaianas would steal other's and so on and so forth. Haha!

Well then we went for bowling at 2AM-ish and went back to chalet at 5AM then I slept at 6AM all the way till check out time. Haha! Went for escape after checking out. Escape suck ballz, many of the rides were closed and the only ones I enjoyed was the Vikings and Wet n Wild. Nothing much all in all. Train-ed home after that. I had to offer my seat to this old man because he was hinting me to. He kept stamping his feet so I just stood up and gave it to him. I mean I should be giving it to him, but I didn't want to look so forced. I prefer giving up on my own. But whatever. I'm freaking tired now.

Goodnight!

chalet

2008-12-03T23:29:00.002+08:00

hey folks im at chalet now using yap's iPod t blog hehe. So hard t type, any we all think that georgina is drunk, but she claims she's not. Haha. Ok don't waste battery bye,

Nach Rach

2008-12-03T13:43:00.007+08:00

Bowling yesterday with Nach! Went to Ehub @ Downtown because the rates there were cheapest. But still, quite expensive. Haha, stupid Grassroots lah! Go close down. Tsk. Trained down to pasir ris and walked to downtown. Ate Mee sua at some Shilin poser shop, which wasn't worth my freaking $3.50. Haha after eating we went to th bowling centre! When we reached there, we were welcomed by this long queue. So we had to wait lor,

I am in queue number 10! Which means I have to wait for 10 lanes to complete.

So we went to gelare to munch! Heheh. Fat people.

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Went back to the centre after that, which we were super lucky, cause they were flashing my name already! Hehe, started bowling!

Wanted to get a NEBO Card so that we can have 4 games free but the boys who promoted the card to me was gone! And I didn't want the wrong people to get commissions so I decided not to get! Eh but it was so worth it lah, $20 bucks for 3 years and alot of benefits and discounts. But boohaw, not fated! Hahah. Walked around E-hub because it was raining. Then headed down to White Sand's macdonald's! Haha eat again :D

Stupid Nach and her unglam shots of me!

Hahahaha very ugly!

I like this, it's so cute right right :D

Went to skate at Kahming's void deck after that!

Urbaned to Ice cube from his house, which is a very short route but I still choose to call it urbaning! Hhahah, it was embarrassing and I don't wanna type it out! All the slope's fault, I banged and hugged a pole like a panda! Haha, so stupid.

Skating is so torturous in the beginning (now) but I'm loving it. I have swollen ankles, muscle ache at my butt and hands (Idk why). And a recovering knee. Hahahaha.

On a monday with mum

2008-12-02T12:00:00.000+08:00

Went out with my mum yesterday, awesomeeee. We went to alot of places and I took alot of pictures. Okay not exactly alot, but enough to do up a presentable post. So here goes!

Went to the Singapore flyers (AREA only hahaha) to walk around since we had nothing to do. Were supposed to go for lunch buffet but we decided to have buffet for dinner instead. So we walked around and I saw the most disgusting thing ever in my life. (HAHA Exaggerate) There was fish spa there, EEEEEEE !!$#%$%#^$ YUCKS! Hahahaha whatever ah stop!!!

Hahaha, it was my first time there so I felt like a noob and I took alot of pictures. Of the flyer and the flyer and the flyer! Hahah, how expensive is it? I'd like to go there one day! After yesterday, I felt like I should go visit the tourist attraction all again once more. I think it'll be pretty interesting. Zoo, Botanics, Singapore Museum, Flyer, Take the boat at clark quay (near there?) and aiya, alot more. That should make my days more interesting! Rather than bumming at home. Teehees. I'll be calling agents for work soon, after this packed week!

SO SO SO SO SO Coming back to the topic, we went to "Jelapeno's Pepper" for lunch. That was my first time hearing that name so I was feeling eggxited. Yknow, good food?

The place is nice right, feels like, "ahhh, peaceful" Heh! I like I like, so colourful, makes me feel so chirpy. Hahahha, ohkay did I use the right vocabulary? Oh yes I did. I checked th dictionary, lol. I have to do that, lest there are people who laughs at me! I mean I laugh at how some people blog! (oopsiiieeee! haha)

Gahhhhhhhhhh the soup of the day! Which is the mushrooooom soup, heh. I can't rlly describe food personally, so I can't tell you how good it was. Like, my descriptive is not up to standard! Come, I try. Okay, this soup is superb because unlike most of the mushroom soup I tried, this soup has bigger pieces of mushrooms! So you could savour the taste better as the taste is stronger.

Eh, that doesn't sound very extraordinary right, so what? I should stop describing man! Hahahah. NEXT.

This salad, veh nice lor. Hahahahahaha omg shit I am laughing to myself.

Ah ah my sirlion steak! I don't even know how to pronounce the name. Sir-lion? Or sir-leon? Or what? Whatever it is, it's niceeee. No fats, all meat! Oh oh the whipped potato! I personally love it alot man, like what dyou expect from someone who doesn't like KFC's whipped potato! LOL, there, again I don't know how to describe it which is totally wasted because all I can say is that it is like DAMN NICE.

See see, the steak! I'm Hungry now!

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On the car,

acting like I KNOW Photography! HAHAHA. But it's quite nice right, (not) But quite interesting. It feels good taking a perfect breathtaking picture, which I can't. Hahaha oh my horrible vocab.

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After lunch we went to the "red dot building" which is rlly red. Hahaha, I'm not gonna tell you what I went there for, but just showing you some pictures I took there. It's an "arty" place so I got quite eggxited, again!

I was welcomed by this. All those are letterboxes! So cute right, so... old style.

Heh, red floor and white walls. The red flooring makes the walls look pink, so cool. Hahaha omg I seem to get amused very easily huh?

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Ok, out of the building! We went to Plaza Singapura to walk around. My mum got me a new pumps and I wore the new one while she wore my heels. She complained that hers was too tall and her feet hurts! Hahah, so I benefited!

This was in the hotel's toilet. Wanted to have our buffet there but changed plans in the end. And since I was there, I just had to do this. Haha, I like the soap container, so cute!

Oh yay finally a picture with my mum! So pretty right :D

Hahaha and we went park mall for our buffet, and I was too busy enjoying the food so I did not bother about my camera. Go try it one day okay! It's at the basement. It is superbbbbbbbbb.

Nuff said, I'm tired. Byebye!

OMFUNNEHHZXZXZX

2008-11-30T23:10:00.002+08:00

OMFGGGGGGGGGGOSH I AM SO TICKLED WHEN I LOOK AT THIS PICTURE. WTFWTF I CAN'T BELIEVE I LOOKED LIKE THIS LAST TIME. HAHAHAHAHA I TOTALLY FREAKED OUT WHEN BERNICE SENT ME THIS. HAHAHAHA DON'T TELL ME THAT I LOOK LIKE THIS NOW PLEASE!! HAHAHAHAAHA I CAN'T STOP LAUGHING.

LOOK AT LAO NIANG NOW :D

nuffnang?

2008-11-30T17:06:00.003+08:00

I just checked nuffnang, my blog only has 375 views a week! Like wtf so pathetic please. The thing is, I earned 20 cents from nuffnang ads, so funny please! Like Idk how it works, but since I'm putting up the ad, please like, see it or read it or even click on it! Hahaha, not as if posting this helps but I don't want to beat the ad's purpose. It's like $49.80 more to earn before I can receive some money, laughs out loud.

Anyhow, I went to city hall to pass present and I waited for an hour plus while drinking starbucks. Good thing Siti was accompanying me the whole way by texting me. And I saw coke! Haha, Oh by the way I just realised not long ago that starhub student plan has upgraded to unlimited free sms, which is like a 100% discount, oh so cool right! Heh so now I am texting like there is no tomorrow at all. All th way from morning till night. To whom? Siti lah! HAHA.

Right now there is nothing I am looking forward to. Behold, next week is going to be super packed for me but I am glad because only then won't I feel lonely or fat, (maybe, for bumming at home!) heh. Let me see,

monday : Go check out something w my mum, maybe skate after that (Alone cause apparently my skating partner's girlf is back from msia hor hor hor)
tuesday : Bowling with Nach, it's been so long since we've go stop jump bowl! (Hehe inside joke, but then again I don't know if the joke's correct lol)
wednesday to friday : Chalet chalet I am hesitating to bring my skates or not.
saturday : Sheesha (maybe) with Laura and Weijie. YES!
Sunday : Go ahma house if my brother comes back from army that day.

PACKED OR NOT PACKED OR NOT?!?!?!?!?!

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Oh yeah I forgot to mention! I went to buy my slalom cones already and I just came back from skating! Still extremely nooob man, I hate myself for being such a retarded learner. Haha! I didn't dare to do back cross because I didn't want to falllll. I think I am gonna take a long time to learn backward tricks. Boohaw. Anyway Im lazy to upload picture so.... haha!

And I just got to know,

2008-11-30T10:26:00.000+08:00

Change of plans, but, I don't know where I'm going haha so ciao.

back again

2008-11-29T21:44:00.003+08:00

Hongyu, Belinda and Bernice, come back now! I feel so lonely out of a sudden. I am not looking forward to class chalet. I might just give it a miss and spend my time skating away. I am going to gym and gonna buy cones tomorrow, alone. Most probably, skate alone as well. :)

So what

2008-11-29T09:42:00.001+08:00

Got the gift, it's nice, but

so what?

Screw

2008-11-28T10:42:00.003+08:00

Lately I've been sleeping at 3AM in th morning and waking up as early as 9AM in the morning, and I hate it. What's wrong with me man, my eyebagz are getting worse each day. GAH. And whatever is wrong with my stomach? I had a stomach ache yesterday morning and I had gastric at night. Then 6AM in the morning I had to go shit, and when I woke up at 10AM I had to shit again. And the pain feels like hell ( I mean, I have not been to hell, but literally lah )

Now my ankle hurts cause they're slightly swollen and my knee hurts too cause of the fall yesterday. Haha, I sure am lousy eh? I'm a loser man _l_ but I'm still gonna continue skating. I think I should like get my cones real soon. I can feel the urge of skating almost everyday. Haha, well but I hope I won't get sick of it. Ok, I won't I guess. There's so many tricks to learn and I'm not gonna give up. Just gonna take it slow and what nots. Ah. I'm gonna take life slow and everything else.

Will someone please tell me you care for me? It feels like really long since I heard that. Right now Hongyu is not in Singapore. So is Belinda and Bernice. I miss you guys, please come back real soon :(

On a lighter note I'll be going out with Germs to get a birthday gift. I hope that'll cheer me up better. Ciao.

I don't wanna miss a thing

2008-11-27T21:55:00.003+08:00

Met kahming at 2.30PM and went for MAC first. Heh I tried the Mega mcspicy and it was awesome. Heh, so went off to skate at the carpark near my house. It sure was fun though I fell and it really hurts even though there was no bleeding occuring! HAHA.

Pictures up tomo, I might skate again tomorrow night. Heh, I'm so addicted somehow. Gonna get my own set of cones soon yay. Gah I'm drinking black chicken soup now to replenish my woman's lost blood! HAHA, I think the black chicken looks so freaky. Quite scary.

Fuck I am having gastric but I am drinking soup aren't I !!!!

skatez

2008-11-27T12:30:00.001+08:00

YAYZ Im finally going to skate today. So eggxited.

To win some, or learn some

2008-11-25T11:36:00.003+08:00

Oh yes before I forget,

Thank you so much for the card and cupcake you made for me, Pang bear. These two years for the random mails and birthday mails and all we've gone through together. You're my bestttttttttttttttttt girlfriend. I am so glad we got closer during secondary three which I don't know how, but I vividly remember you saying me cute! HAHAHA ( I was playing with some ribena packet or something. ) Well you know, you're one rare guy who cooks and bakes! And makes such wonderful cards too, it's super nice I tell you, I can't do that, haha! And yes, you're awesome so as what you've said to me, you're really really worth much confidence in yourself. Anyways, thanks for listening to me whenever Im down, and you never rlly were a bother when you complain to me as well. I just hope I helped! For all the times I had with you, I rlly enjoyed myself and I hope we'll be best friends forever. ( ALAMAK SO CLICHE )

And Hongyu too, thank you for the card with the pictures and all of my unglamorous moments spent with you! Hahah, and yes, it all started with your smile on orientation! :) :) :) :) :) And I'm glad you did smile! From secondary one till now, and who knows till we lose our teeth and have white hair! ( But I'll dye it lah of course! HAHA ) Eh without teeth still must smile okay! HAHA. I remember we didn't like each other during a period of time during sec 1, but somehow we cleared up and I'm loving you till now! Even though we do quarrel, our quarrels are "Silent" ones! HAHA You get what I mean don't you? Hehe being in the same clique for 4 years, with many leavings and coming backs, we two are the ones who have been staying together. So romantik right. Though we don't always share secretz with each other, we just know that we care for each other yes? Right now Im feeling so happy for you ( You know why, hehe ) and I hope it stays like this. Come back from msia now! Hahaha.

Just messages to this two for now. More to come in time! When I'm feeling sincere again. HAHA.

Prom

2008-11-25T09:42:00.008+08:00

Firstly I wanna say, this post is a bias post about prom because I myself was in a 'mood-less' situation even before prom started. And I, excluded myself from all activities for a moment and was feeling really, really fucked up during prom. So to me, Prom suck ballz! Hahah, so "wtf ballz" ! (quoted from Dan) I looked like a total kukujiao, I felt like another person but no not me just not me, at all. See even now I'm feeling so anal. The story is, I actually had to change my outfit at the very last minute because my mum thought my outfit was weird. AHHH like wtf lah I'm still boiling at the thought of it. At the end of the day, I WASN'T EVEN MYSELF!

Fucked up man, pictures lah! :

PROM QUEEN IS MY BEST FRIEND! :D

BYE FUCKED UP

Swear it again

2008-11-24T14:43:00.003+08:00

Heyhey, here to do up a post of yesterday before doing one tomorrow, on prom tonight! So yesterday saw me going to Orlando for jamming! Like, finally yes? When we reached there we were greeted with a whiteboard that told us that our jamming session was on monday, instead of sunday! (Hahaha Lenny booked the wrong date!) Fortunately the slot on Sunday was empty so we got to jam! Hehehe.

Apparently Mark was the only one willing to pose for a picture so there, the only one! Hahah.

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Town with Germaine after jamming to get the remaining stuff for prom.

AIYA totally no mood to blog already cause the pictures are so redundant. Hahaha bye.

The best camp ever

2008-11-22T22:47:00.008+08:00

I officially declare that REDcamp5 is th best camp that I've been to, though it's a day camp and it's not an adventure camp, there's something that makes it rlly special. I can't rlly tell what is it, but to those who backed out th last minute, you really missed out a whole lot. Gah I'm quite sad that it's over! But then again, " All good things come to an end! "

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So anyway, here are some random pichas!

Eh! This guy is our sec 2 camp's instructor (Camelot)! Hahahah.

My first time " Clubbing " (sort of), I can't dance for nuts! Hahahaha, so this is all! REDcamp5 is over and I'm glad I had fun the three days.

As for today, I spent my time bumming at home again. My mum cooked laksa in the morning and hokkien mee for dinner. I have no idea what's got into her cause she don't usually cook! Hahaha, but it was awesome.

Now that's all folks, I'm eggxited for jamming tomorrow! Hehe.

RED Camp

2008-11-19T23:11:00.004+08:00

Seafood Fried Noodles (?) I think!

The Mango Salad my auntie was so eggxited to have! (hahahahaha)

Thai Laksa! (Crayfish!)

Met up with my auntie and cousin for Thai Express @ Plaza Singapura yesterday. It was my first time so I was rather eggxited! Haha I should say the food there was great. Considering that it was a free meal (great deal!) because my cousin paid for it! Hehehehehe Teh Nee I know you'll read this!

Went to carefour for some junkie shopping and got my blue shirts for REDcamp. Walked in there for quite a long time so we headed home after that! Gheee, THANK YOU for th meal :D

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Ok, so today was REDcamp. Was quite reluctant to go since yesterday but after some persuation, I thought it might be a good experience to try it out. True enough, it was quite an interesting experience and I think I really like Ngee Ann. I want to get into Ngee Ann's Mass communication for nuts, but it's like 10 points, and I know very well that my chances of getting such results are almost impossible. (Extremely slim!) Though I've heard that Mass Communication is a really REALLY challenging and I reckon I'll be having a hard time, but I really really want to do it. I AM SERIOUSLY REGRETTING. For not studying hard enough to gain that confidence of attaining at 10 points at the least. Sigh, :(

Putting those aside, after visiting the nursing course in Ngee Ann today, I figured it's not really that despising to go into the nursing course. Though it's 24 points(?) The things they do are quite interesting as well. Who knows you might just see me in a nursing course next year! Quite cool! Hahahaha. Sheesh, I'm so contradicting.

I'm looking forward to entering a polytechnic. Ah, feels good!

Period,

2008-11-16T23:32:00.004+08:00

I want to go swimming everyday now quick quick get slimmer for th dreadful prom. Quicker quicker period, thanks for your visit. Shoo shoo go away red so I can swim in peace! (Teehee I sound kewt lololoololololippoppppp!)

Sigh sigh I totally dread prom, I have not gotten my prom outfit and and and my face it's so screwed up with lots and tons and thousands of polka dotz ouh, so decorative huh?! Hehehehehehe but who gives a damn about me, ugly betty!

Oh gah but I'll be performing though though!

Nata De Coco's

2008-11-16T19:20:00.007+08:00

Yesterday saw me going for my haircut at my mum's friend's salon, which is at Marsling. It was smalllll but it was pretty okay, no disaster haircut for me! ( Also partly because I'm not trying any new style, just had it layered, ) One thing I rlly enjoyed during th whole process was the part where the lady got my head massaged while shampoo-ing(?) my hair. So comfy I could just fall asleep I swear, but I was busy texting on th meeting time and such after my haircut. My mum abandoned me so I took th train down on my own to meet Pangster at Novena.

Walked around Novena Square 1 and 2, went over to United Square and found nothing. Walked a whole lot and got Nata a Havaianas Slipper in th end, th children sized! We got her like a freaking size 3 and it fits! Hahaha, so small so cute right. Since it was still early and we still had like-a 2 hours more to th party, eating was th best thing to kill time isn't it? I was craving for Ice cream so I had Yami Yoghurt and he bought his waffle and Each-a-cup bubble tea. Headed to TP and then decided to go IceKimo (More Ice-cream!!!). I wasn't supposed to be eating ice cream and such cus I was still having cramps, but I just had to! Hahaha.

Ok finally, went to meet Yap and OTH then head to her house for the BIRTHDAY PARTY!!!! (LOL) There were foooood of course, but I was too bloated with th excess ice cream. Hahah fat.

Played Jenga truth or dare. I think I was the first to make the thing fall? Hahaaha. Aiya, I'm very lazy to elaborate, you know how party normally goes! Pictures from my camera :

Ghee I took 1 hour to get this post done up.

angst, or not?

2008-11-14T15:03:00.003+08:00

I don't know if I'm supposed to feel angry. BUT, I guess I shouldn't. What for, because it'll only make myself feel much worst than having menstrual cramps on itself, yes? SIGH.

cramp fag

2008-11-13T12:52:00.001+08:00

Menstrual Cramps..........

Hurray

2008-11-12T11:36:00.003+08:00

O's are ( Or is it supposed to be is? ) officially over! I can't believe that we don't have to go to school anymore. Ok, Polytechnics are schools but they are polytechnics! Ok, whatever, you get what I mean!

Town w Germs yesterday. The Coffin is a waste of money, not scary at all! Tsk.

Hot Fuss

2008-11-09T17:40:00.002+08:00

I've been bumming at home without going a single step out of the house since friday. I am bound to get even fatter than I already am fat. I'm blaming it on the blister! I need to swim soon, or I'll be drowned in fats. Hopefully I'll be able to drag myself up tomorrow to study with Hongfish!

(fakes out a forced smile)

Stay young

2008-11-08T21:04:00.003+08:00

So long.

Some people want it all.

2008-11-07T16:36:00.002+08:00

I'm sick at the thought of prom. I am not looking forward to it. I'm back to the same old thing, thinking that it's not fair because some people just seem to look nice in everything. You know, it's so easy for them to pick anything and look nice in it. ( I'm not pointing at anyone in particular, anyways )

THINK OF PROM I VERY SIAN DON'T WANNA THINK ALREADY LOHZZXZXZXXZXZXZ. GO TO DIE LAH HELL BYEBYEZ LOHZZZXXXXASSSZXZX.

Bliss-ter!

2008-11-07T00:38:00.003+08:00

Hehehehehehehehahahahahaha I like my previous post. So retarded and cranky. But I really cannot believe that I'm that dumb. Should've asked my brother if I was supposed to cut the skin away! When I told him that it was damn painful, then he told me that I'm only supposed to "poke" it. Hahahaha. When I poke and saw water coming out, I felt extremely amused leh! HAHAH. So retarded. Now I keep kicking the table accidentally and so unfortunately it happens to be the spot my blister is at. Silly nanny (hehe so cute)

PAINFUL LAH CUTE YOUR ARSES!

But then again you can't rlly blame me for being so stupid. Cause it's my first blister!
Woah what an historical event!! :D :D

Back at one

2008-11-05T19:17:00.002+08:00

Wah I tell you ah.

I got blister at my last toe right
then I dont know ma, then i go burst
and cut the skin away!!!!!!
now fucking pain!!!!

connected

2008-11-03T00:04:00.002+08:00

I've been out of the world ( feels like ) since forever. I mean, have been missing in action online cause my internet was sick. Yeah and finally I am back.

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So, O level is ending in a few days and how do I feel? I'm feeling quite depressed for the whole time because after every paper, I'll realise on my own or hear from others about certain mistakes I've made. I have a huge hunch that I'll do badly for my O levels. Feeling much lost and confused now, I have no idea where I want to go after Os. I wanted Mass communication or Applied drama and psychology but it so seems like I can't make it for the courses. It's all to late to regret now isn't it?

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Been losing interest in life recently ( Haha sounds like Im going to suicide or smth ). It's like suddenly, my life have turned so meaningless and what-is-that-word. Like, I have no idea why I'm sad about my life but I am sad kinda thing. Haha! Well putting all those aside, I think I'm the weirdest person on earth to the majority because I don't want O levels to end! Once it ends, it's like everything is wasted. Maybe it's that way just for now, cause I don't see how the things we studied applies in Poly life.

On the contrarary, I can't wait to go on to Poly smacking lappys at coffeebean's sofas rather than finding a table somewhere to study with pens and notebooks. But then again I'm afraid of landing into a course I've totally no interest it. I'm scared, seriously.

Ahhhhhhh talking about all these is a killjoy so ciao ciao all the best to me!

Who knew

2008-10-13T23:38:00.002+08:00

I'm getting so emotional but who cares? All these stress are getting on me but I just can't seem to concentrate. I think I'm going to do badly for sure. I want to hug a teddy bear. I want to cry myself to sleep now. Someone stab me please :(

I feel like people don't like me. They laugh at me and I feel like a complete retarded fool. I am feeling guilty most of the time but I actually haven't rlly done anything wrong. Maybe I did but it doesn't make sense. What I'm saying now doesn't really make any sense as well. I really feel so miserable now.

Put me to sleep please :(

Happy burpday

2008-10-10T22:07:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday to me. I didn't go out after casuarina's after school. Cause I came home and rather sleep my time away.

Now I'm regretting it like nuts! :(
(pictures up another day)

Terima Kasih

2008-10-09T10:36:00.002+08:00

Thanks fo th birthday gift :D Yes, you the one who passed it to me yesterday night. Rlly appreciate it ALOT. Feel rather bad actually, it is like a so expensive please. Thanks anyhow, no words can express my gratitude.

And of course, I love you.

Ending of Peirce days

2008-10-07T22:18:00.002+08:00

Hello, I think I'm getting back my luck. I got goodstuff today. Went to get my skate slingz today, hehe not going into details ( Im not supposed to tell ). But I'm a happy girl now :D Might be skating to the bus stop a distance from my place to catch 169 to school this friday. At the same time I can make use of my new skate slings, and I can flash it in school lol. Im hesitating because Im sure there'll be people who say Im showing off! Hahaha.

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School's ending this friday Im really excited about it. I doubt I will cry during the ceremony. Well at least I hope I wouldn't ;D It's hard to predict right? Hehe, gotta get new batteries for my camera for this friday ( Yes, my camera works with battery, not the charge kind ) Haha! Pichas up when Im free, byebye!

2008-10-05T23:11:00.002+08:00

I've decided to come back to blogging.

Life hasn't been treating me fairly, or do I deserve this? I lost my pouch/wallet and in it, there was my phone, earpiece, POSB card, Ez link card, but thank God there wasn't much cash. Besides my pouch, the bugger also stole my Zen stone and panasonic earpiece. What a cruel piece of shit right. Though it's also my fault that I left my bag there unattended, but why are there such greeedy pigs! (curses and swears)

Good thing is, Starhub is so kind to give a new free SIM card and a hundred dollar voucher for 1st time losers like me. ( People who lost their phone for the first time lah ) Hahaha. So cool so cool, so gotta get a new phone that is below $100; a cheap one lest I lose it again. Haha!

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Studying haven't been very productive but I'm gonna promise myself to work doubly hard from tomorrow on. I love books! (Inserts nerd smile) Can't wait for Os to be over, then prom then chalet, and genting trip with Belinda and Bernice. Ah I shouldn't be thinking bout all these now right, ciao ciao!

Thanks

2008-10-01T22:57:00.004+08:00

This post is specially dedicated to thank the following people (Random ordering) :

Kahming

Hongyu

Bernice

Belinda

Tenghow

Justin

Chengni

Lenny

Renkai

Jasmine

Gabriel Loh

Jonathan

Qixiang

Sri

Weifen

Amrit

Nadirah

Germaine

Natasha

Mike

Shawnyap

Shawnpang

Hezwan

Joel

Yiqi

Hungyih

Shanlin

Coke

Sofiana

Genevieve

Jolene

Zuokuan

Danial

THANK YOU, for chipping in to get me a birthday gift. Especially Kahming, for initiating this. Me have no idea how to express my gratitude.

THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Malcolm is a talent, lol.

2008-09-29T20:41:00.005+08:00

I know I just announced hiatus but I am too amazed !!

Pretty right! Zomgz Malcolm drew this on my msn conversation with him because he was bored. Amazing right, I never knew he had such talent. It's seriously pretty lah! HAHAHAH

Anyway I got acknowledge hor, MALCOLM DREW THIS. So don't say I plagiarise kk?

HAHAHA BYE CHEETAHZ

hiatus

2008-09-29T20:08:00.002+08:00

1. Didn't go school today.
2. I think I have constipation.
3. I think I'm on hiatus.

Hahahahahahaha, I am damn sorry, I shouldn't be blogging so often, Im going to shit now, bye!

Come on

2008-09-21T15:27:00.002+08:00

Stupid killer weather. I don't have th mood to do anything related to studies. Gah. Gotta work doubly hard though. Everyday Tp/Library now. Nothing much to say. Bye.

(Turns on t hardcore study mode)

Spell Disappointed

2008-09-16T20:57:00.001+08:00

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I'm sad, don't you know?

2008-09-15T23:28:00.005+08:00

Tell me what I should do.

I totally don't understand what you're tryna tell me by doing all that, I'm extremely irritated by everything else. But of course I can't totally blame anyone. Afterall, it's worthy enough for me to sympathise. What am I tryna make myself do? I am, afriad. The routine.. the routine! It's back. Oh how capricious. A moment ago we're all talking sweet and a minute later it's all ruined. Blame comparisons, to others or to the past. Yes, they're all different but th most important element doesn't. The heart, I still have the heart... Why did we even get to the topic?

I shouldn't have said anything. Nothing at all. You know, I want t help, I rlly do. It's a natural reaction, isn't it? I know it's hard on you too. But I'm not gonna let this affect anything else. It's a different subject, I say. I just hope everything would be back fine soon!

Yeah, what's the point of rambling.
I'm sad, don't you know? I'm feeling lost, don't you understand?

Afterlife

2008-09-15T21:29:00.003+08:00

Prelims ended today, I'm so angry with myself that I got th bitumen question wrong! Damn it. Gah gah. I hope MCQ rlly pulls my marks up, esp for chemistry. Structured paper for chemistry rlly sucked for me. Bleah, just wait!

School's normal lessons starts tomorrow, I'm super lazy t bring th books for normal lessons! Maybe I'll just bring a few. Or should I just bring everything? GAH. Troublesome, I hope there isn't remedials everyday after school like we had before prelims. Hmmmm, I should say prelims is rather manageable. I kinda screwed it up though,

Rawr!

Mooncake

2008-09-14T00:57:00.004+08:00

Oh, I just realised that this year's mid autumn's festival is so insignificant to me. My family didn't buy any mooncake or anything. We'd usually have. Haha, I'm so sad.

I want to burn lantern!

Warmness on the soul

2008-09-13T21:35:00.003+08:00

I think I shouldn't bother so much about helping others anymore hur. I have no friggin idea why I'm getting so worked up over nothing. Haha ok let's just give th reason that I was rlly busy but I had to be brainless just to fulfil my sudden desire to be helpful! Hahaha, whatever bitch. Actually, why th hell do I bother so much to get credited right! Bullshit hehe.

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ANYWAYS,

I had a successful attempt of cooking spaghetti yesterday. I went to buy the sauce, fresh minced chicken and canned mushrooms and cooked. Hahah, super shiockah. After that I went to meet Genevieve and Germaine for family nite @ Anderson Primary. We walked one round and came out after talking to Mrs Fong because practically nobody from our batch went back and it was boring. Genevieve and I headed for Icekimo after that since she haven't had her dinner while Germaine went home. It's been rlly long since I've had a good talk with her and finally we did, hehe. I'm a happy girl!

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Hmmm, I took a break today, went to catch Wall-e, rlly cute. Hehe. I had stingray and instant porridge for dinner, I'm a happy girl. Wanted to play candle with Chengni but decided not to, anyways my mum won't allow me to be home late and it was already like, 9PM so I'd rather not go! Play tomorrow instead haha!

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A few days back I was practicing math and I asked Jonathan for help. And he did the question, took a picture of it and sent it to me. I was super amused at the words on top of the paper. Super funny can! Hahahaha.

"Jonathan's step by step guide to qns 16" Hahah, so assesment-like!
So smart! In the end I didn't bother to figure out because I was too lazy and the steps were so... long! Hehehe but thanks anyway boss!

Going to study tomorrow! Bye.

From The Ritz To The Rubble

2008-09-12T00:11:00.002+08:00

Hi suckas! I'm finally able to come online. (Not after long,) My modem had issues since yesterday night. I'm extremely irritated by it, cause I couldn't seem to track the source of the problem. No shitz now, I can connect already and I'm hoping it wouldn't happen again! (Slapz th modem).

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There's no paper for me tomorrow so I can sleep in! Hehe so joyful. However period's still on and I can't sleep peacefully, always have the fear that it'll overflow gah, I have no idea why I'm telling you this though.

Gonna take this weekends off, tomorrow is Anderson Primary's annual family night to celebrate Mid-Autumn's. Most prolly gonna catch a movie this saturday, then swim on Sunday plus plus study maybe? ( MAYBE! )

Anyways, bye.

With tears and joy

2008-09-09T23:06:00.005+08:00

Saturday. Settled at Mac instead cause library had no space! Tsk. Anas joined us soon after. Actually, I was slacking the whole time heh.

Took a walk in the park before heading to library and we saw this bug crawling. Super special right, maybe to you it's not special but to me it is, because I've never seen such worms before haha! So hairy and FAT. Looks like it's poisonous.

In th library, hahah.

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Yesterday's. Headed to th library after lunch in school. ( Lunch in school = save money ). Hung and Zuokuan was going there too so Hongyu, Zk and I waited for Hung. Took bus to Hub cause I needed to buy pad (HAHA). " Wah the pad super long damn shiock!" ( Hahaha inside joke, but it's pretty obvious )

Headed home after library.

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Today was physics and History paper. Physics first, it was relatively easy to me, except for around 2 questions. Quite confident overall, unlike Chemistry paper. It was like a disaster to me. Okay lah, I just hope I can pass. I kinda screwed prelims, sigh. Well on to History paper, it was alright I guess. Source based was suprisingly manageable, as in I feel I can do it, but we won't know if my answers are correct, right right? ( Inserts spastic smile )

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Mathematics paper 2 tomorrow, gonna practice now! Can't afford to fail emath. Amath is going to be horrendous enough. Heh, bearings bearing come out okay! :D

Just bleed it.

In between

2008-09-08T00:36:00.002+08:00

I've decided to have a break from all the numbers while I blog. I've been doing math since 430PM. Ok maybe not, I settled down for real at 9PM and have been doing Amath till now. Going to move on to Emath for another hour or so then turn in. Yawns. I feel so bad for eating so much in the later part of the day today ( Dinnertime till now ). I had Onion+Egg mix and a packet of maggie noodles for dinner @ 8PM. Then I ate 3 pieces of bread + Milo @ 12AM. Now iz 12.46AM and Im hungry again. But Im not going to eat. Whatever, damn fat.

Ohmygosh I spent too much time. bye pichas another day.

Motherly

2008-09-05T23:01:00.002+08:00

Taken yesterday after remedials. Ahhhhhh I love Genevieve Lim! She's super motherly, still lend me her breast to lie on all the time. HAHA. Seriously, I find her super nice and I like her, ALOT. I always have a warm feeling when I talk t her. I feel very comfy talking t her. Heh. Wow I hope you are reading this man, haha!

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School today then 132 to town to get my bag. Then 132 back to go library. Oh before that I went to eat at banquet. I'm proud of myself, I did all those alone! Hehe, went home after library. Tomorrow, library again! Going there @ 10AM with xiia0da HAHA ( Omgz eww ). xiia0da is so not Belinda's name! Hahahahahaha.

Bye.

D.r.a.m.a.

2008-09-05T12:10:00.001+08:00

Gotta go school for drama soon, 130PM @ school. Walao, and it's until 4PM. Hate this :(

Semb Mac

2008-09-04T00:53:00.003+08:00

Geeky girl!

Twiting in progress - - - - - - - - -

Whoa I think I'm damn chiio in tish pichaz n0rhz. Hehe!

Love ya'll bye bye.

ACJC

2008-09-03T12:49:00.009+08:00

Hong hong came t my house in th afternoon yesterday. Left my house at around 4PM then went down to Bishan to meet Coke, Yap and Lenny.

We had pastamania, I only had 2 garlic bread and an ice lemon tea though, the rest had their meals. As expected, we of course crapped a whole lot before leaving and head down to ACJC for the Drama examination display. Just for fun, we're not interested in JCs har har.

I am quite amazed because in their products they can use vulgarities like the four letter-ed F word. Heh, plus one of them actually did something sexual. Haha not going into details. But it sure was good. Hahah, got another perspective of using a split stage lol.

Thanks Jowell :D

No, we weren't hugging hahah.

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Headed home after that via Jurong East interchange from Bouna Vista. Like finally I can be the one who get down the train first. Usually, everyone would be using the route via City Hall and I'll be th last one because I stay at Sembawang! Bleah. I was a happy girl yesterday, but today is the time to pay back. We all felt super guilty because we didn't actually study :(

Gonna make sure it's a productive day today. Ciao ciao going to meet Chengni at Semb Mac later at 2PM ( Argh so late then start studying, feel so wasted ).

Chiong

2008-09-02T11:37:00.004+08:00

Library with Hongyu, Qixiang, Roy, Hung, Zuokuan, and Lowell yesterday. I was supposed to go there alone. Then met Hongyu since she was there alone as well. Soon after, Hongyu called Qixiang and Roy to come but don't know why, suddenly th rest seem to be invited as well. But it was ohkay. The library was damn crowded so all of us squeezed at one pathetic sofa. Heh. Saw Weifen, Marilyn and Venice so after the rest left I went over to join Venice and Weifen (Marilyn left first) Venice said that my handwriting was nice so I wrote him a "page" Harhar.

Studying @ Sembawang Mac today then go off to meet Yap, Coke and Lenny for Drama play at ACJC. Ciao!

2008-08-31T22:20:00.000+08:00

Marina Square and Town with Belinda yesterday. Like finally, I felt like I haven't been there for years. ( Actually, I think it's really been quite a few months already ) Haha! Walked around for her top and I bought th colourful bangle and a couple of earrings from Marina Square. I saw a bag but I didn't have enough money with me, damn sad. All in all I had fun. Spent my day at home slacking today. Going to chiong from tomorrow on! Ciao.

Back

2008-08-29T22:50:00.004+08:00

I went missing for almost a week now! I have no idea how to go about blogging. I shall upload pichas yes?

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Last saturday when I went fo practice at Pang's then to study at TP!

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Belinda's birthday!

Here's a bonus for you. Birthday girl's beautiful picha. HAHA.I was taking a picture of myself and she attempted to block me so that's what you get!

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I drew this for Miss Hong! I am very happy with it ha ha! I drew it last night and I slept at 230AM. I drew another card for Mr cheng also, but didn't manage to take any photos of it. I drew him a big calculater hehe.

I had fun in school today. Teacher's day celebration. I didn't look at the time at all, I just realised I don't even know what time did school end! Went back to primary school but didn't go visit the teachers. Haha, defeats th purpose right? Anyhow I went back with Germs and we stayed there for like only half an hour and then we scramed because there was nothing to do! Haha, I came home and slept for 4 and a half hours.

Must mug soon!

Heck

2008-08-23T09:32:00.003+08:00

I don't see a point going on hiatus or going private for two months just because th school is reading it. I shall just stop cursing, I'm not even supposed t be doing that to begin with. So it's quite a good practice, right! Hehe, I've been wanting to stop doing that actually. Slap me if I do it.

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So, yesterday I lost my wallet after that unintended night study session. Was supposed t go t the library but it was raining cats and dogs and lions and dinosaurs. Hence th change of plan since I was feeling lazy anyway. Lucky me had my EZ link with me in my pocket after returning th class key, hehe. Hopefully I left it in the MT room. The rest who are going to school today are gonna check fo me.

I can't send messages through my phone, I don't know why. So irritating lah. Gonna practice for performance later, then go study. Ciao!

adding

2008-08-19T23:04:00.002+08:00

History test tomorrow! Mugging now, feeling super lethargic all over. Should get a cup of milo to keep me awake! Hehe. I know milo doesn't make me awake but whatever. And I don't know why I chose to tell you this. Hahah. Tired!

Something is missing

2008-08-19T22:46:00.002+08:00

I shouldn't be so over-confident. This is no good. I should study now! Study study study. Friday is Prelims science practical already. I hope I'll do well. 1 week september holidays is going to be hardcore studying week. Let myself off for a day or so, then subsequently, library till night almost every possible day. Hehe. I'm going crazy. Goodbye.

With all I am

2008-08-18T20:49:00.002+08:00

I'm left with 10 minutes to blog before I go off to mug. This time let's hope I can make it. I'm studying at home! Tomorrow there's chemistry mock prelims on all the chapters. Gosh I have not even started revising for Science at all. I have not been listening attentively in class even. Haha, but I think I can make it ;D History test on wednesday. Chapter 2,3,4. No kick! HAHAHA.

Lotsa people skipped humanities remedial today, so not fair right. I should have skipped also! Then I'd have more time to revise for tomorrow's test. Bittergourds must beat most of everyone else! So, I better do well tomorrow. Ahhh but I'm afraid I can't. Grr,

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Nobody came to look for me for any follow ups. So does that mean that I'll have that record there? What the hell please, not fair :(

It never rains but it pours

2008-08-17T23:22:00.004+08:00

I went swimming today and it felt really good. Studied a little after swimming. In the library at night, something really scared me. There is this man who asked me if he could share the table. So obviously I said yes 'cause everyone does that (sharing of tables). So he chose to sit in front of me. He was holding a book but he didn't read it one bit. Because he didn't flip the page at all. He kept looking at me! And everytime I tried to look at him, I mean I glanced to see what the heck he was looking at. He will grin at me! What the heck it was so scary I swear. Then, he also kept looking under the table for nothing. It was really scary. I know Im not very attractive or sexy or whatever. But you know right! Tsk. So I quickly packed and went to the first floor. Before I even pack finish, he picked up my watch from the table and passed it to me, GRINNING! Eww.

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Adding on, I'm really looking forward to see what follow up work they would do tomorrow. Really, life is so screwed up. Such a cliche sentence but you know what? It's really coming true in my life. Good thing I have good friends around me.

Moody

2008-08-16T20:20:00.005+08:00

This is as if it's the end of the world man. Because I've been thinking too much about me getting a dirty record, I feel like neglecting everything else. I didn't go to the library to study today. I slept all the way. I don't feel like studying, actually. Omfg I hope they follow up. Pretty unfair to me if they only listen to the teacher's side of the story. But wtshit can I do man, I'm just a student whom they think and percieve as someone who cheated. Bleah. It's overtaking me I tell you. Not like I've never broken a school rule before, but all those are just attire problems :(

I really can't accept it lah.

dumb

2008-08-16T11:35:00.003+08:00

I have decided to study chemistry today but I realised that my chemistry file, I left it in class. Luckily, I found some old notes in my file and I can revise them! So why am I telling you this? Sigh.

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My mum just nagged at me because I didn't off the fan in my room for like, 5 minutes.
I'm wondering why she didn't scold my brother because he left the computer on and he went out. I bet it's been hours.

compression

2008-08-15T20:34:00.003+08:00

I can't get over it. It's seriously too serious of an offence to me man. Plagarism, you say. What th heck was that? Now, I don't even know what they're gonna do to me. Feels like the world is coming to an end for me. (Or us) I'm sad.

Plagarism 2

2008-08-15T15:24:00.003+08:00

I am not in th mood for anything purposeful right now. I am extremely sad. I think I'm going to slip into depression if anything else goes wrong, I promise. I treated myself to my favourite blackforest ice cream to cheer myself up but I don't feel any better.

Filmed monologue today. Wrote report and am told that I'll be dealt with by disciplinary committee. Although SEAB won't be alarmed by this incident, I still am extremely affected by this. I screwed my monologue; I forgot my lines. I had freaking little actions. And I didn't vary my rhythm. Good luck.

To hell with monologues

2008-08-14T22:40:00.002+08:00

I'm gobbling down my second round of dinner tonight. I had pastamania earlier on before coming home to cheer myself up. Grandma already cooked for me so of course I have to hide it from mum that I've already eaten. Later on, I still have soup to finish. It's like an assignment. Feels as if my tummy is going to explode. So is my mind. Ha.

I'm so friggin' tired.

Thought I'd be able to sleep well tonight. Ohwell.

Plagarism

2008-08-14T19:48:00.003+08:00

So much for being overjoyed at everything yesterday. Today was a total different story. No, it isn't "was". It still is. I still am. Sigh. First, I forgot to bring my DVD for drama and I knew I was going to be dead. And secondly, who's this person here typing who is so damn dumb. Whoever the heck knows that I can't do this? I could distinctly remember me going up to tell her and I could remember this sentence.. asking me to save the website. So I put down my heart and did it. And I thought I've made it yesterday. Just yesterday, I thought everything was beginning to be over. At least a huge load out of my mind, a huge load of extra time for me to study. I was so happy that I think I can drown my head in the toilet bowl. Now, I think I can even drown my head inside poo.

What the hell What the hell What the hell What the hell What the hell What the hell What the hell What the hell What the hell What the hell What the hell What the hell What the hell What the hell What the hell What the hell What the hell What the hell What the hell What the hell What the hell What the hell What the hell What the hell What the hell What the hell What the hell What the hell What the hell What the hell What the hell What the hell What the hell What the hell What the hell What the hell What the hell What the hell What the hell What the hell.

I told her today because I thought I'd need to put down the link somewhere or something. Where in the form said that we could only use sources as inspiration? If it's only acknowledgement of inspiration, why the heck do we even have to put down the link? Inspiration is free. If you get what I mean, that is. My brain is too crapped up to think of a better way to put it. The form said something about this thing - that only taking people's work without any form of acknowledgement is it. The thing is, I told her before but who the heck notices and discovers and realises that she didn't get what I tried to tell her. Is it the world, or is it just me? Just this dumb person? Maybe take it as I'm stupid. But I think she thinks that I did it on purpose. What the heck! So, I got into committing plagarism and it deem as I admitted I did it. I did plagarism? Oh wow. I was too dumb to even think of it. To think I'm such a failure to not even know the meaning of that freaking word. To think I declared no sign of plagarism. To think that this shit is happening to me. I mean I don't want to accuse her too cause it was just a moment of miscommunication. Like, all I want is a chance to explain myself before you get to a conclusion whether to record it or not. I don't want it in my beta! UGH.

Thanks. Thanks. I wish I could slam my bag once more and cry once more. I don't freaking care what sec1s sec2s sec3s sec4s sec5s see me cry. I don't give a shit. Forgive me, if you think I'm too much. I just hope you'd understand this once. Just this time...

Lastly, thanks for those who were trying to appease me and cheer me up. I'm sorry to have given you such a lousy attitude. I'm truly apologetic. I love you guys.

Fine, I'm off now. No sleep tonight. Re-doing my monologue shit suck Bye.

Phew

2008-08-13T20:51:00.002+08:00

PHEW. Everything went well today. The English Oral, the Drama monologue. I'm super glad that wednesday is over and done with. English Oral was quite manageable today. Topic was on hairdressing and CCTVs. The conversation started with a relatively weird but funny question : What is your favourite hairstyle? Haha. I rambled on about how hair can reflect a person's personality and character, blah blah. Overall I think I did a-okay. Learnt my lesson not t be over-confident already. I was quite disappointed in my Olevel MT results even though it was something I aimed for. Whatever is wrong with me. Haha I'm over it and I'm not going to shift my focus by retaking my Chinese. So, I'm not retaking my chinese. Haha!

Finally all Drama practical is done. Our mild nightmare is over. No more staying back on wednesdays, no more going back to school on saturdays! I will miss it though, but I'd rather miss it than dread it! Have somemore to do later on. I'm dog tired.

hello my friend we meet again

2008-08-11T22:19:00.004+08:00

Hello my happy friends. I'm home! Home sweet home, where I can dig my nose openly! ( Hehehehehehehehe that was disgustingly random but I know you like it. ) Teeeheees. Today I went t study with Belinda supposingly at AMK Macdonald's because there isn't any ant space at library since it's a school holiday and as predicted, all typical students flooded th place. However, upon seeing many peirceans, we decided to scram and we ended up in Novena's Macdonald's.

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Reached there at approximately 3.00PM, ate a little first while slacking for around 15 minutes, then started to study. I did a few chemistry questions because I realised that there wasn't any periodic table printed on th paper. Then I switched to do Emath paper 1 from Northbrooks. After that it was already 530PM or so. Headed for pastamania and I had some stingray thingy. Hehe yummmmmm ( What the heck so act cute I know right )

After that, I went to AMK library myself while Belinda went home first. Saw a couple of rugby players and all so I sat at th table beside them. I was left alone soon after Germs and Darryl saw me. Tsk, two little pigs. Hahahahah. I left for home at 855PM and yes yes here I am! I guess I'm going to study later again. Like F-I-N-A-L-L-Y I'm back to my study mood. Hopefully there isn't any remedial this week because of the English orals. Then I can seriously start my study routine just like a couple of months before! I like the feeling of studying regularly. I won't feel that guilty and worried at least.

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Adding on, I'm really excited to get back my MT results tomorrow! I want an A2 but I think I'll be happy enough with a B3 though! A2 is too much t ask for I guess hahah! Afterall I'm not that good in MT to begin with. Plus, didn't complete my conclusion shiatzxz! Ah anyway school's in for tomorrow and I have to open th classroom door. Lucky my mum's fetching me to school tomorrow because I've t bring some props to school. Ciao!

080808

2008-08-08T18:15:00.001+08:00

Connect Singapore was super screwed today. We were told th wrong standing positions because this chief motivator of our school drew the map wrongly and so he gave wrong instructions. In th end, he was th one who was pissed with everyone else. Many of us were irritated by th constant shifting because we couldn't connect on either one side or the other. The worst thing was, we didn't even recite the pledge eventually. Ok, maybe some of them did, but it's not like we didn't follow instructions or what nots. It's because the radio cue didn't even tell us to recite the pledge! They only counted down, " 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1, HOLD HANDS!!!!! " and they didn't say recite th pledge or anything. Haha if you think that cue is obvious enough, I don't know how to explain t you. It's not just me who gave this arguement so please don't say I'm dumb or anything. Tsk. Well it was still okay because I still had quite alot of fun just standing there and doing silly stuffs, not t forget laughing. Furthermore 4e1 came in second for our mini mural competition. Quite exciting hur.

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Stayed back in school for a short while then headed t Sumo House to have our lunch after some of them went t cut their hair opposite school. Amelia came after we've finished eating. She haven't changed much, we all miss her laughter. I heard she's going back t korea next tuesday. She got a tattoo for herself two days ago and I thought it looked pretty ;D Belinda, Pearlyn and I walked around AMK Hub while the rest were having fondue at Anderson's and I got myself a new watch yay. I like, although it's a little act cute hehe.

Looking forward t tuesday when we get back our O level MT results. Not like I have confidence in myself but let's hope I get a b3 then I don't have t retake! Right I'll go have my nap now since I've made up my mind that today's supposed to be for me to rest. Goodbye!

Fantasies

2008-08-07T18:52:00.001+08:00

Extremely overdated pictures :

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The doll I sew. Super ugly I know. First timer please!

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First of all I am so touched because the sky is crying like finally. I don't like wasting money on turning on the air-conditioner. Maybe some of you turn th air-conditioner on everyday but I don't. Haha, sometimes when it's pretty cooling out there, I don't even have t use the fan when I sleep. I like that, you don't waste electricity, and sleeping without a blanket over feels better for me.

I went TAF today during recess. Walked around 5 rounds I think, can't recall. I should be going again next thursday to ensure that Nata runs 4 rounds at least! Hehe. TAF was quite fun, it feels like an extra "free period" since I don't have any in my timetable. Walking and chatting instead of jogging. I am not in TAF fyi, though I can't deny that I'm rather chubby ( A nicer way to put it ). Hmmm, Miss Wong didn't come to school today so our monologue was not practiced to the fullest extent, especially some of them who were playing The game of LIFE despite having a relief teacher in the idea gym. Talking about the relief teacher, he looked like Mr Bala on first sight and we were all shocked at first. Haha! It was a good session all in all because we finally have a "break" from drama. I practiced on my voice though. I had two rounds of lunch after school. Laksa then some kueh which is pink in colour. Haha, TAF during recess doesn't help. But whatever, I'm happy.
Physics remedial after school, Mr Goh was feeling quite pissed I can tell. There was this part when he said " Some of you pretend to say 'Mr Goh take care' and all that, asking me to get well soon and show lotsa care and concern to me. But you don't even want to listen to me, then I need to shout and scold, then how can I get well soon? " Hahaha, I am wondering if he was referring to me but I am sure I didn't talk much when he went through some questions with us! Bleah, bleah, shan't bother.

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Connect Singapore tomorrow and I have t reach school at 8.00 AM. Let's just hope it'll be fun overall. Oh the worst thing of all is, 4e1 has to stand according to our index numbers. Lucky my partners are fun people! Plus, I think I can roam around because I'm one of the student leaders yay. Jiajun's helping me with my class yay. Yes and I starting collecting donations today! Hahahaha.

Bear hug

2008-08-06T22:24:00.002+08:00

Drama remedial ended at 0645pm. Had dinner at Sun plaza's macdonald's then home sweet home. Mum's out for cell group and I'm home alone. I'm too lazy to move so I'm not going to touch any homework. History homework should try its luck coming to me tomorrow morning! It would be a rare occasion if I wake up and complete it. I'm only willing to force myself up if only I had to complete an english assignment, you-know-why.

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Mr Pillai didn't come to school today. Miss Chia too. For history lesson, a relief teacher took over. He teaches German in NYP ( If I didn't remember wrongly ) so we learnt a couple of senteces and words. E.g Dick means fat in German. Haha, it was pretty interesting and enjoyable. I tried to start on the source based that was given, but the teacher kept talking to us that I can't help but to listen to him. It'll be retarded if he was talking and no one else was listening to him, right. I slept throughout Mother Tongue lesson because Miss Chia isn't in school so there's no Dynasty Warriors to watch. I attempted some Amath questions but I gave up anyways. I slept with Lenny's phone music plugged in my ears.

When I woke up, most of the people are gone except for a few of them who were crowding at the entrance of the class, looking upwards. Haha they were looking at ants carrying ikan bili and popcorn up to their home. I joined in also, we were like observing them and making fun of them. Then there's this part that the ants had to carry the food horizontally. As in they were walking overturned, and they actually succeeded lah! Haha we reckon that in the end, the ikan bili would be too big to be squeezed into their narrow hole. Dominic said he didn't want to witness that situation so we left. Haha, imagine they travel so far to realise that what they've brought back is too big to be brought into their hole. It must be so disappointing right. Hahaha.

Completed a draft of our monologue today. I think my monologue is so disappointing, it's damn boring to me. Ugh whatever. I'm tired. I have no pichas, sorry. Soon I promise! ( If you're interested in my pichas, that is ). My eyelids are closing now,

Toodles!

When I'm with you

2008-08-04T21:37:00.003+08:00

Im eating sardines in porridge now and it looks so scary because I can see that it's part of a fish. Haw haw I'm gonna eat you till you go extinct. I'm not afraid of cooked fish. I'm only afraid of those who are still alive and swimming, and those crazy and dumb ones who jump out of th water and land on the floor, flickering up and down. Ew, dumb. Ok, I am freaked out by the fish and hence I donated it to my mum. HAHA.

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I have to make a doll out of felt and I'm in need of cotton wool. Cause my doll is fairly big in size and I need plenty of cotton woolz! Wahpiangz cotton wool is so expensive, my heart ache when I think about the amount of cotton woolz I have to stuff up in that doll's ass. I was talking to Coke on MSN and this is what I got when I asked him to donate some cotton wool to me. Bittergourd and his evil plot.

Come on, without you I'll never feel the love inside of me. says:
eh donate cotton wool to me
COKE. We sure are cute for two ugly people. says:
hahaha i dun have cotton wool at home
COKE. We sure are cute for two ugly people. says:
we always use cotton buds
Come on, without you I'll never feel the love inside of me. says:
haaahahah
Come on, without you I'll never feel the love inside of me. says:
walau
COKE. We sure are cute for two ugly people. says:
haha i teach you
COKE. We sure are cute for two ugly people. says:
go fall down
COKE. We sure are cute for two ugly people. says:
then go general office grab!
Come on, without you I'll never feel the love inside of me. says:
hahahahahahah
Come on, without you I'll never feel the love inside of me. says:
walao
Come on, without you I'll never feel the love inside of me. says:
still must fall dowen
Come on, without you I'll never feel the love inside of me. says:
down*
Come on, without you I'll never feel the love inside of me. says:
later i cannot act
Come on, without you I'll never feel the love inside of me. says:
ORH HOR
Come on, without you I'll never feel the love inside of me. says:
I know your plot
Come on, without you I'll never feel the love inside of me. says:
you want me fall down then cannot act properly so that you can be the best right?
COKE. We sure are cute for two ugly people. says:
HAHAHAH
COKE. We sure are cute for two ugly people. says:
wah!
COKE. We sure are cute for two ugly people. says:
i din't know you so smart!
COKE. We sure are cute for two ugly people. says:
aiya shit

Hahahaha assholez. Anyhow Kermo ( HAHAHAHA. Kermin ) decided to be kind and donate to me cotton woooolzxzxzxxz Lurbe lurbe : )

Awkward silence

2008-08-03T01:48:00.002+08:00

I totally forgot that it's th 7th month already. It's hantu festival. Hahaha. I went out to sunplaza to study at 9pm earlier on. Came back at 11pm and have been online till now. I am not sleepy at all now because I had a nap before I went out. Well why am I telling you this? Hahaha because I'm bored bye.

400th

2008-08-02T18:07:00.005+08:00

Weijie, if you're reading this, MUACKS. Hahahahah.

I was being cheeeeeky, TEEHEEES!

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This is my 400th post but I'm not going to say anything about it. Duh, what lame shiatz.

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This morning I woke up at 0450am with a tummyache. What a time to shit. Went for drama at 1030am. No, I was late. I reached at 1050am. Melvin's group had their recording while my group had ours yesterday. Well finally this thing is over. And I can say it's quite a success afterall. Yay, No more staying back on wednesdays and friday afternoons! ;D Anyways three of th secondary three drama students performed their monologue for us. I should say, they're really way better than us when we were in secondary three. Hahah.

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Headed t th hawker opposite school t have lunch with some of th rest, weijie & Miss Wong. After that went to Bishan library t borrow some books; I'm sewing a doll for myself. For my monologue, that is. Hopefully I don't fail lah?

I should be patient. You will be back t normal. I think I should really let you know that your words really hurt, indirectly. I don't know how I should feel. You said you can't be bothered anyway.

Stubborn

2008-07-31T22:04:00.004+08:00

Oh my gosh this is so stupid. Being stubborn, I ate up all the prawns ( 4 only, actually ), leaving non for my mum. Guess what? I'm allergic to prawns ( I know that actually ) and now my mouth is a LITTLE swollen HAHAH. That must be pretty retarded.

I have a dream

2008-07-31T18:36:00.002+08:00

I have been thinking so hard trying to recall what I wanted to blog about. I thought about it in the bus and I forgot about it when I got home. Now that I finally recalled, I feel so retarded for feeling so frustrated. Because it isn't really important at all. ( Tsk )

I wanted to say : Thank God I had coins in my pocket. Or else I would have looked retarded if I were to get down the bus after I got on. My Ez link was negative and I forgot all about it. Phew. At the bus stop, some amk primary malay girls were looking at me ( I think they were laughing at me :C But I don't know what. ) Potential minahs. Haha let me just make myself feel better by saying I think they liked my hair. HAHA. I like my hair myself :) Quite screwed though.

Another thing to thank God about! Chemistry remedial started at 130pm and ended at like 245pm. What a great joy. I'm sick of remedials. I need a break please. Whatever happened to two weeks of self study after prelims for the O level students? They used t have this practice. And not it's gone. Can we complain? And what night study. The operation is so dumb, actually. If we tell them we are going, we MUST be present. Well what if we suddenly have something on? Or we don't even feel like studying on that day. We can't force ourselves right, tsk. I'm such a whiny bitch. But seriously, I'd rather go to the library in this case. Ha ha even though there might not be any available seats. DOH.

Aiya I'm done here. I'm so tired. I'm going to sleep. Ha ha bitch.

Cross the line

2008-07-29T21:46:00.002+08:00

Hey there! I can't wait to get my mother tongue results on 10 August. It's coming pretty soon and I'm excited! :) Well I certainly hope that I wouldn't need to retake my chinese. I don't have a problem with passing it I guess but the thing is, we have to retake if it's a b4, if I am not wrong...

Ho ha anyways today was torturing. Ok maybe not really. I had two consecutive lessons of mathematics. Elementary followed by Additional. Feels like it happens very commonly recently. Oh gosh do you understand what I'm talking about? Hmmm. After school, I had this "Connect Singapore" training thing. The event where we have to hold hands along the roads outside school and recite the pledge together to celebrate national day. Bleah, I get CIP hours but I have to raise funds through th pledge card thing. Tsk.

To add on, today's assembly item was much more interesting than usual, definitely. Carpenter's tools. Well they were better two years back, I think. And they scam! Hahahahah ( Inside story ). I wanna jam and I've been saying this for ages. But EHHHHHHHHHH. Walau.